#397

With 2009 coming to a close, the biggest topic of the year seems to be my job and how i'm coping with this job..

Of course, the greatest joy and also anxiety had been from the birth of my baby and the 8months++ of coping with the pregnancy with my wifey and the ups and downs as well..

With countdown creeping closer and closer, i find myself seriously lacking the time that i usually would have to reflect upon the changes in situation and the passing of time..

mental and physically fatigue has also drain my once-creative and entertaining post, this could be a reason that i seem to lose readers or people don't check back that often anymore.. people like good news and happy things.. not rants about work, life, money and people..

12.24am - i have put in extra hours for work once again.. would this result in better days, better weeks, better months ahead? How long would i survive or suffer? How much longer would i bear? What options could lie ahead? What choices would i have to make?

That's alot of questions for a very short week..

And if i havent really seen you guys, we'll have to make do with next year..

till then, i hope you enjoyed your christmas and the last day, the last hour, the last minute, the last second of 2009 that belongs to you and you only.. will not be about work.. unlike me..

396: Dust

For those reading 396 on a thurs/friday, i'm probably busy cleaning up the house for staying condition, so yeah.. keep yourself entertained by choosing some of those links on your right and read some other blogs.. have fun

395: Interest

Something should be really wrong if the GM needs to sit me down to talk it out.. as it seems, he now holds the impression that something is really wrong with me and that i gave him the feel that i'm not interested in my work..

is that really the case?

Have i really lost interest in my work?

It was a question i didn't answer over work, it was a question that perhaps i'm sure of an answer, or perhaps its an answer that i'm not prepared to face as yet..

somewhat, i feel that i have little left to learn in my current capacity? does that mean that i have perfected my craft and thus nothing more needs to be learnt? It seems more of a case that i'm sick of the coordination work that i'm running and the lack of thinking that stems out from my job.. perhaps that's why i'm not performing to his standards.. because i care less about certain areas of my work now than i used to, than i should..

this seems to be heading down a really difficult path.. how will i survive this bad patch? will misfortunate strike again before i pick myself up? am i restricting my fightback because to some extent i know that the criticism that i recieved is not fully unwarranted? am i being picked on since i was once held in high regard by the same person who sat me down to talk now?

yes, i'm sick of all these unanswered questions.. maybe i'm not even trying to answer them now... as monday looms, i just hope things will turn out well.. till then.. till then then..

Post 394

394 is about gossip, office gossip as i wait for my hair to get dryer before heading to bed..

my day ended really late today as i was waiting for the PR girls to send out the photos to ST by tonight in time for tomorrow's run.. a 10.30pm deadline got stretch to 11.30pm and i left office close to midnight after shutting down the entire office and waiting for my cab to arrive.. my cabby, of all days, had to choose today to drive to the wrong taxi point when my usual Press "1" states clearly its GIANT drop off point.. damn

as it is..i promised some gossips in hope of maintaining the feeble readership that i still manage to hang on to and hope that more people will start commenting on post to make the writer feel more alive!

the new senior executive that is not so new now happens to be my neighbour in office.. and for someone relatively new, she has managed to piss of quite a few of us and you know she can be really pesky when even the GM feels harassed by her.. let me get this straight, she's pesky because she likes to bug you about work, she will ask you questions looking for answers she don't need to know, or answers she should already expect.. there's no point chasing me for the same thing 5 minutes apart.. i don't have time to check and you are certaintly not on my list of priority.. i know you want to get your things done but every task has a place in the food chain, my tasks included, much less yours.. multiply the same pesky-ness by a few executives and a few seniors and i guess we pretty much have a picture of how thing's like..

the sian-ness in office is also getting ... more sian.. haha.. i'm not alone when i say i'm sian and i believe that i'm part of a bigger group either waiting for some miracle to happen or some phone call to come our way for interview.. the only problem being that while i have shortlisted some potential jobs out there, i haven't actually sent anything out.. so there goes.. No Action Talk Only.. i suck

on the home front, renovation seems almost complete and the final pieces of the jigsaw will come together as we head towards the 10th day of the 12th month of the year.. house-warming will have to wait for most of you reading this blog as some dates have been pre-booked by wifey and our house is simply not big enough for everyone at the same time and on top of that, weekends are precious moments with the little one and we need to cherish every moment, on top of work commitments, weekend duties, cleaning up the new place and getting things in order..

quite a bit going on there uh?

keep yourself warm for the housewarming yeah, you should hear from me soon.. i hope. haha.. make some noise here if you don't.. i read this page much more than any of you, that i'm sure..

good nite