#416 2011 First Post

Post number 416

First post in 2011 since my last hit in Oct 2010.. i have almost given up on this channel completely, because no one really reads.. what started as a blog with a silent wish that good writing and interesting content can lead to a following of readers has became nothing but a personal diary, visited more by friends checking in on that odd count then a reader's following..

2011 is surely a year of change, 17 days into the new year and i have been "upgraded" in my job.. i use the term upgraded because i have not been promoted in neither salary nor rank..

While many would be more than happy to celebrate such "promotions", i have held back so far..

One reason i changed my job was my problem dealing with the ongoings of office work, administrative duties, compiliation of endless amount of data, monthly meetings and so forth.. what i had enjoyed very much in the last 9.5mths is totally going to change..

perhaps i have not mentally accepted the new "challenge" or age has caught up with me that i am happy doing what i enjoy and able to do relatively well in.. i dislike leaving behind things for the next guy when i know i could have see through the process and complete what i was building.. i knew that with time and support, i could make things a lot lot better for everyone.. but things are not to be..

in any job, a promotion in position will be very celebrated, for it means that the path up has started and that bosses have faith that you can perform the higher responsibility job while they have yet to show their sincerity through your bank account.. having said that, with a growing boy and household bills, car bills, renovation bills, living expenditure bills to pay.. i would be crazy to not hope for a promotion and the hopeful tag-alongs of an increment or promotion in rank and grade at a later stage..

let's see what are my thoughts some weeks down, especially when the incumbent leaves for his posting and i'm left on my own..

but still.. i'm not entirely convinced by myself... i am my greatest enemy