Of Fertility

In an attempt to ease the moodiness of this blog and in the essence of time provided by a sleeping baby (instead of a crying one), i had prepared this post on the 17th for its appearance only on 19th..

despite the availability of information on the internet, it seems like most people still refrain from searching for information and learning to unlearn, learn and relearn but they have.. as it is, i'm not referencing your medical shitheads, wiki and what-nots for this post.. just a random flow of information that this tired mind can recall..

i do hope that readership can increase after the succession of 2 postings in 3 days.. hence the more interesting topic on fertility.. the recent upgrade from husband to dad-mode also somewhat meant i'm a little more qualified on the topic..

now now, basic science or biology that you had taken in secondary school would have educated you that a sperm has to fertilise an egg before a child can be conceived, what science didn't teach you then, was that an egg is only ready to be fertilised in a 24hour window period after it descends from the ovaries.. what's more interesting is that where the "ready" egg is available for only 24hours, the human sperm, under the right conditions, can thrive in the womb for up to 3 days while readying itself to fertilise the egg..

confused?

Bascially, it takes an awful lot of chance or an extremely high amount of testing and planning to successful fertilise an egg, the next chance for the successful combination would be to nest itself onto the wall and begin development into a foetus in the womb..

from a tiny little dot in the early days to the comma-like creature that developes into a cashew nut and finally a tiny human, fertility, pregancy and childbirth is a challenge in its own.. if you are serious about getting a child, find out more, ask your friends (can ask me too), ask your gynae, ask you wife's gynae, ask ask ask

good luck

*Hope this was an interesting post after a lack of time and creativity has kept this blog rather boring over the last weeks, i do hope to do more of such post and i hope you folks who bother to check in frequently don't get disappointed.. on a totally separate issue, i got my first cheque from google for the ads i read here.. so thanks if you are one of those who clicked those ads or used the google tab to search stuff.. you had certainly contributed to the milk powder/diaper fund.. stay around for more!

Of 2 Fronts

Been busy on 2 fronts, the home and work front..

At home, it seems like i'm guilty of trying to do everything, wash baby clothes, feed him, wash the bottles, change diaper, prepare food for wifey, clean the room, clean the house.. sounds like alot of things but majority were done in a less than complete manner.. and at the end of it all, it seems that i have over-estimated my abilities to manage that many things in the short hours that i have.. people operate more effectively when the necessary tools and equipment are available to them, the same goes for equipment, they function better when the user is well aware of its capabilities and limitations.. maybe i should really let go and just be less ambitious when planning for the home front.. my morning hours before work are just enough to feed the baby, sterilise the feeding bottles and that's about it.. i can't cook a dish, i haven't gone to the market.. washing is always impossible unless i wake an hour or so earlier..

on work, i have been turning up late and its getting more and more consistent, usually due to the fact that i attempt to do the things above and stretch myself thin over the limited minutes i have before i head towards the train station.. work also becomes more motivating when one is learning and working in effective teams.. my latest "big" project was not exactly mine, here's the story if you are still interested in reading (if not, skip green):

i was assigned a big-scale event that was never done before and the initial timeline for planning falls closely to my baby's estimated delivery date (EDD), as it is, the event continued to be assigned under me as my GM wanted me to gain an experience leading a project.. at the same time, there was an assistant mgr overseeing this as they attempted to throw me in the deep end.. my concerns on the other hand surrounds the fact that i am on reservist for the last 2 weeks of july, with my baby EDD on 20 aug and the event orginally planned for mid-august. In the end, the pace of preparations fell badly and the event was shifted to 12 of the next month.. between august to sept, work was hectic as i returned from 2weeks of reservist and 1week of paternity and annual leave to settle the kid down.. and combination of poor sleeping conditions and a troublesome confinement lady left little energy for work and i struggled to clear the backlog of emails and outstanding work while grappling with what went on with the event during my absence.. a week after i returned, i was bombarded with the work surrounding the event and its was a great mess reading up on what happened and coordinating things like food tasting, advertorial writeups, photo sourcing, getting an agency in order and generally working to prevent potential landmines from being step on as the timebomb ticked away..

as the event day draws closer, i begin to doubt more about the wisdom of appointing the chosen event company, or the lack of it in making the decision.. i can be critical about things that i feel strongly about.. initial ideas proposed by me were scrapped completely and that proved to be the event's achillies heel as the emcee struggled to down crowds when the stage games were on.. what a disappointment.. i shall not even go on to talk about the reasons for scrapping my idea.. i recommended something because i saw a gap and i tried to plug it, but the plug was remove and the water went away as it usually would..

my lack of pride in the work produced, the events company and how i was not impressed how a manager and assistant manager could not have noticed something was missing from the plot could be one of the reason why i shown a lack of resistance to just let it flow.. on the flip side of that very same coin however, i was faced with direct feedback from the GM that i have people disagreeing with his assessment that i was a good worker..

perhaps i have really lost my mojo once my baby came into the picture, perhaps i find it hard to motivate myself with a team that lacks synergy, perhaps perhaps perhaps.. enough excuses..

(if u had been uninterested to read the full story, i hope you had skipped to this part instead of just clicking that X on the top right-hand)
incidents in the weeks have subltely shown me how people expectations of me is now gradually reduced as they begin to question my ability to manage higher loads of work.. i agree to an extent that i'm not ready to lead projects, it's a senior's terrority to lead a project and all the more it becomes harder for an executive to lead a project that is overseen by an Asst Mgr and the Mgr

the decision to drop me from an upcoming campaign has its pros and cons.. on one hand, it frees me up to concentrate on certain aspects of my work that are deem more important at this point it time.. on the other hand, it demonstrates a lack of faith in my abilities, a lack of support from management in times where performance are undermined by the team i work with and the commitments at home..

every cloud has its silver lining, mine came travelling down to where i work to show to the light.. opportunity knocks when its least expected, the question is, is the timing right? will the wait be worth waiting for?

Somethings, only i'll know

Shanks for readings.

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